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Have you ever had a nightmare?
A scary nightmare when you sleep and it wake you up with full of sweats on your body?
You wake up and still can remember how scary they are.
Make you afraid to get into your bed again.
Sometimes you cry when you remember that nightmare.
It's scary. Besause it is nightmare..Yes, It is a Nightmare.
How if we put our life as a dream. Or we are sleep as we live in real life? Have you ever had nightmare?? i believe all people will have their own nightmare.
Mine? What was my nightmare?
It was when i was in elementary school. Meanwhile, my class planned to have a trip to Petrosains in KLCC. A study trip. I was quite excited with it since i was really into any science stuffs. But there are something i was afraid about it. When teacher said that we need to pay for this trip, my gut broke. The excitement went off. The thing i scare happened. The rule is, who pay will go, and who cannot pay, stay in class. That was bullshit because the trip was in school day. So people who don't go to the trip, will stay in class or will be entered in another class for a day.
My family not afford to pay for the trip and i was not shock with it since i already knew about it. My family is not like another family in my class. We have financial problems. My mother just a nasi lemak seller. And for us, even rm5, it is very valuable and hard to find. Sometimes i got jelous with my friend. But i never told anybody how i feel. Up until now.
So, when the day came, i didn't went to that trip. There were only two pupil. Me and my friend. He got another problem. So teacher asked us to entered another class for that day as they went to trip in KLCC. Did anyone in my class care about what i feel? How awful to be left behind? How's damn to be discriminated by family background?
In another class, that's another problem..Another pupils talked behind. They were saying about i'm not afford to pay so i need to stay in their class while my other classmates enjoyed in KLCC. Do you know how hurt it is?
So, that was my nightmare. How i wish it just a nightmare in a sleep, not in my real life. The nightmare in real life are more awful than in sleep because it will give huge impact to real life. For me, it make me grew in low profile... not low profile that in good term. it is in bad term..when i'm with another people, i will feel how low i am. i will think 'who i am?'. what is my family background, compared to other. And it is really awful!! I try not to think like that but how? i used to be discriminated because of it. TT_TT
And i became like an antisocial. I don't like to social with other since i already know i just alone.