I don't really understand myself
Usually I could care less about this kind of stuff
But it's been a while
I felt so completely lonely
Insecure with my own feeling
I guess because I am in this age
Already left my teen age
And saw everybody with their own partner
Somehow I feel the need to as well
Urge to have someone to take care of
Someone to belong
But by just thinking about it
bring back all the memories
and get myself confused
but still, that loneliness would not leave
My friend keep complaining and bragging about want a partner
so it just worse my interior situation
though I just say to him,,, it's better not to have one
Me and my friend both single
but I guess it's hurt more to be single after having a relationship
because all of that time we were together,
and suddenly she only about she and me only about me
It's some different kind of loneliness
Reflect.. It's me, who is alone.
Meanwhile, i realized.. i'm just like at the middle of this video. I wonder if i can end up like the last part of this video.
Deep inside, i'm just so sure there will be no such happy ending. For me.
Reflect-Hatsune Miku
The ugly you
in my mirror
I wonder
when you will be allowed
You were
already so used to being alone
Your
connection to everyone was distant
The ugly you
in my mirror
I wonder
when you will be allowed
Saying “I do
not need happiness”
All the rights
were abandoned
The ugly you
in my mirror
I wonder
when you will be allowed
Saying “I do
not have courage to die”
All the responsibility
was accepted
While saying
I want to die
I’m still
living this way
By living,
you are hurting someone
You, who are
loved by no one
You, who
appeal to no one is-
that’s
right,
-alone
While
screaming with a big voice
You lost the
sound of you heartbeat
Even still,
It did not
Reach
anyone’s ears
While
letting out a sigh
You forgot
the way of your breathing
Even still,
It did not
Reach
anyone’s ears
The ugly you
in my mirror
I wonder
when you will be allowed
You don’t
want to be avoided so
Even you
abandoned your own self
The ugly you
in my mirror
I wonder
when you will be allowed
You’ll never
be loved so
Even you
accepted your own self
I don’t need
anyone, I am tough
I still cry,
far and beyond
You are
living, but nobody notices
You, who can
beloved by no one
You, who can
be appealed to no one is-
that’s
right,
-alone
While the
dazzling light grows dark
You forgot
the way of your own outline
Even still,
It did not
Stop at
anyone’s eyes
You beat up
the dirty mirror
Because
meeting me was a horrible thing
Even still
It did not
Stop at
anyone’s eyes
As always,
it was a rainy night
And I walked
without putting my umbrella
From fear
that the houses boarder will leak numbers in warm light
At the
bottom of the streetlamps light
The puddle
reflects light
There was an
obvious reflection there
It was you, It
was me
That’s right
I was alone
I was
hearing nothing because my ears were blocked
I checked
the sound of my heartbeat
I see now
Why it won’t
Reach
anyone’s ears
I noticed
that I had actually been breathing
I had only
been holding a big breath
I see now
Why it won’t
Reach
anyone’s ears
I opened my blinded
eyes
And I saw my
ugly figure
I see now
Why I had
never
Harmonized
with anyone’s eyes
I collected
broken pieces
And I faced
you for the first time
I see now
Why I had
never
Harmonized
with anyone’s eyes
I see now
I was….alone
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